Emile Thelander

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The dogs wake me before the light does. Not barking — just movement. Nails scraping once against concrete, a low sound in the throat that never turns into anything useful.

I lie still longer than I should, listening, waiting to see if it escalates. It doesn’t. Eventually I get up anyway.

Outside, the air is already warm. The yard looks the same as it did the night before. One of the dogs watches me step onto the porch, then looks away.

I make coffee. The kettle takes its time. While it heats, one dog growls at the yard, then stops. Another joins in briefly. It passes.

I tell myself they probably smelled something — a chicken, a rat, someone on the road earlier than usual.

By the time the coffee is ready, the dogs have forgotten about it. So have I.

Midmorning, I decide to fix the gate.

It’s been hanging crooked for weeks, catching slightly when it closes. I bring out the screwdriver and stand there longer than necessary, looking at the hinge.

The screws turn, but not easily. One resists, then loosens too much all at once. The gate shifts, still crooked, just in a different way. I adjust it again. It improves, but not enough to feel finished.

The dogs gather behind me, watching without interest. One wanders off halfway through and lies down in the shade.

After a while, I stop. The gate opens and closes. It doesn’t scrape.

I put the screwdriver back where it lives and wash my hands at the sink. The water runs warm faster than I expect. I stand there until it cools.

Outside, nothing looks different. The gate holds.

There’s a well at the back of the property that nobody uses anymore. The pump replaced it years before I moved here. Still, I walk past it often.

The stones around the rim are damp even in dry weather. The opening is narrow enough that you have to lean to see anything at all. Most days I don’t bother.

Once, while the dogs were circling the yard for no reason I could see, I rested against the edge of the well for a minute. The stone was cool through my shirt.

Nothing happened. The dogs eventually moved on. I went back to what I’d been doing.

I don’t think about the well much, except to remember not to step too close to it in the dark.

Late one afternoon, a neighbor I don’t know well stopped by the fence. He stood there with his hands on the wire, not leaning, not in a hurry.

“Your dogs make noise at night,” he said.

“They do,” I said.

He nodded, then looked out at the yard for a while longer than necessary.

“Quiet place,” he said.

Then he left.

I went back inside. The dogs were asleep again.

I counted seven bowls that morning and only six heads bent to them.

At first I assumed I’d miscounted. I do that sometimes. I stood there long enough to be sure.

The others ate as usual. No hesitation. No looking around. When they finished, they drifted back into the yard and lay down.

I spent the morning half-watching the tree line while I worked. I didn’t call out.

By midafternoon the absence registered more sharply. The yard sounded wrong — not quieter, just uneven.

He came back before dusk, trotting down the path as if he’d only been gone a few minutes. Mud on his paws. Tongue loose. No limp, no blood.

He went straight to the water bowl and drank. Then he lay down with the others.

That night, everything sounded normal again.

The power goes out just after dark. The fan stutters, clicks once, and stops. The light over the sink fades and doesn’t come back.

The dogs react immediately. Two bark at the house. One runs to the gate and stands there, staring into the road.

I wait a minute to see if it returns. It doesn’t.

I light a candle and set it on the table. The flame bends for a second, then steadies.

Without the fan, the room fills with itself. I can hear my own breathing, the dogs shifting outside, something moving in the grass beyond the fence.

I eat a banana because it’s there. It tastes too sweet. I finish it anyway.

After a while, the quiet irritates me.

When the power comes back, it’s abrupt. The fan jerks on. The light snaps bright. One of the dogs lifts his head, then drops it again.

I turn the light off and leave the candle burning until it finishes.

Night comes unevenly. The light drops fast, then lingers in the trees longer than I expect. I sit on the porch with a cup of tea I forgot about until it was already cold.

The dogs are piled together, breathing in different rhythms. One of them twitches in his sleep and thumps his tail once, then settles. Somewhere farther off, a motorcycle passes and disappears.

The bamboo moves when the breeze finally comes through. It sounds the same as it always does. I notice it, and then I don’t.

Nothing resolves. The things from earlier don’t return, and nothing replaces them.

When the cup is empty, I leave it on the step and go inside. The dogs don’t follow right away. Eventually they do.

Tomorrow will probably look like this one, close enough to be mistaken for it.

For now, the house is quiet.